methOD ACTing Deleuze & Guattari's Anti-Œdipus whil st untRAVELing [deTERRItorializing [re\VERSEnC0DING]] X-country ' hatCHing cLams & calaMARii ABSTRACT: this is a REcordING of th' reADing of ANTI-ŒDIPUS by Gilles Deleuze & Félix Guattari i began as wewere w a i t i n g at GATE 53 of oUr PLANE WxSExNE | thIS ' back in the mid|bim of August 09 | thESE r ' my reflect ions on RReading th' bOOk ' inDUCEd IDEAs & GENEral musings whilst we dROVE back all th' way from SF to NYC via New MEXico to ex OR cise oUr possessIONs & HATCH green chiles & DEtroit to REtrieve calaMARii | > mERE REflectIONs ' th'is my DEcontruction & REconstruction o ANTI-ŒDIPUS ['n the GUISE of a traveLOGue] o 'n D&G terms ' a " deCODING" in SPIREd by 'em [who in t-Urn stAND on many a sHOuLDer] EVErything "in quotes" HEREIN 'r from ANTI-ŒDIPUS ' th' rest 'r mindEXPIREmentations ' me METHod ACTing to get INT.o CHARacter & to REmain in CHARacter on this herE ARK of Natural hyStories
∀ll ELSE ' but sumhow JUXTAposed w/in the conTEXT of th' Oedipal comPLEX ' & w/ th' cover by Fritz Khan ' it soundED e nough in|SANE & couldn't REsist cracking th' sPINE ' & once cracked couldn't stOP reading & i couldn't've pIcked a betterbook to endurstand th' CURRENT state of aMERica [deSPITE D&G BEing French] & me own PLACEr in it ' eSPECIally 'n CONTrast to livINg abROAD 'n AFRICA last year | @ it's CORE ' ANTI-ŒDIPUS is a bout w/th' western world's HERD inSTINCT & how it's maniFESTered itSELF in our media ' govts & th' core of our eCONomic sySTEMs & how this herding sickness is ROOTed 'n th' Oedipal complex [which is ACTually nøt so "complex" but an over-simplification in conTRAST to D&G's SCHIZOANALYSIS ' which is by nature a deliBERATE biFURcating rhiZOME of inCREASING complexity] & free-thinking inDIVIDuals DIVurging from this NORM 'r conSIDEred SCHIZO | i hav n=ever FELT comFORTable living 'n th' poliTICal & capitalisTIC temPLATE of wHat has be come AMERICA & this book clarified a lot of preVIOUS unARTiculates for me | i won't bother sum MARizing the book since there's probably plenty of places: Anti-Œdipus has been ____ANALyzed proper ' inSTEAD will hone in on me own angles [writing & th' economics of pubLISHing a MIdST oUr UNtRAVELing w/a traVOIS] NTI-ŒDIPUS is a BOOK ObJECT [k]NØT MEREly mean+ to be READ ' but read & forgotten ' then REwritten ' as th' Oedipal comPLEX i'self it is no+ som thing we should be con scious of in daytoday living: "This ability to produce the myth is born out of awareness, out of ever-increasing consciousness. [...] it is only through desire that we bring about the immaculate conception." +here | +hat's how QUOting D&G appears ' tho [in this case] it's ACTually D&G quoting Henry Miller | gleened is that [nøtso] MODern [Freudian] pscyhoANALysis is a bout UNDOING the CODEX of our subCONSCOUS & SCHIZOanalysis [th' subject of ANTI-ŒDIPUS] is a bOUT GOiNG w/th' FLOW
NYC [via CLEaVeland] to SFO | FLIGHT CO625 | 09 AUG 14 | 5:21 AM aWoke at som hOur thAT falls som where BEtwix late & early to catch a fLight | our only conSOLation for waking at 4 AM was a free upgrade to 1° class & 400 pgs of Deleuze & Guattari ahead of me aMIdST the perMUTATIONs & LINEar regression of th' retURN:
BoEING 737-800 | th' ANTIcipation of WORDs BEcomING REALity | th' ANTIciPATIOn of +ravel plans unBEcomING conCRETE: "Conforming to the meaning of the word "process," recording falls back on (se rabat sur) production, but the production of recording itself is produced by the production of production." | YEs ' TH'IS the PROCESSion ' th' CHRONicling in RETROspect & production = publishing as w'ere lan ding in CLEaVeland my eYes scanned these liNes: "The disjunctions characteristic of these chains still do not involve any exclusion, however, since exclusions can arise only as a function of inhibiters and repressers that eventually determine the support and firmly define a specific, personal subject [...] these chains are the locus of continual detachments—schizzes† on every hand that are valuable in and of themselves and above all must not be filled in." †wHere schizzes is a word coined by D&G [from the French SCHIZE ' based on the Greek verb SCHIZEIN: "to split ' to cleave ' to divide"] KnowLEDGE of SUMthing & how u ACT on it are 2 different items | inbeTWINE reading i GrAZED on th' landSCAPE be LO th' HOLD: th' 6 hour AERial VERSeon of what would take > 6 days [via land] on th' surFACE ' nøt including stops | th' writing [& subSEQUENTIAL reading] nøt to be N y shorter [N duration] than th' ACTual EXPIREnce As Boriginal dREAMtime a viCARious deCODing of th' landSCAPE by FEATureS re:tained w/in MYTH | th'is th' reVERSE [geoGRAPHical] ROUTE of our forthCOMING trip HOME [via land] | getting us only for to begin achaIN & th' [AERIAL] MApping itSELF was a PREverseCURSOR of why we need to get tHERE to beget [What the Irreversible Free Path Delineates] as we drop altitude over th' HETCHY HETCHY RESERVOIR Re:ENDuRING THE BAY AREA | 09 AUG 14 |4:18 PM re:VISITing wHERE i gradu ated from HIGH school ["memeory can be corrosive [if you let it]" i saID] | time to kill AFTer our plane LANDed --> emBARKed B.A.R.T. to th' emBARCadero w/our baggauge sum >$10.00 for a few stOps com pared to <$2.50 any where in our CITY on NYC Metro | it's no wonder CALIfornia is bankRUPT | PUBlic transPORT nøt nearly as efficient [w/overall imPLIcations to dePENDent proDUCTions]:
wHere desiring-machines 'r 'n conFLICT w/BwOs & in my LEXicon BwO ≠ ARK | thus D&G suMMed up meyes CURRENT state ' of LIFTing themsELVES by their bootstraps ' living viCARiously ' w/out poSSESSions | this as we flew [never taking for granted] over The Bay Areas dis crete circu[s]itry of productION & tOIL re:FINEriers [what's do[i]ng here] | nøt only of this VOYage but also how i enVISION matters FUNCtioning on my own ARK ' for this here ARK is my desiring-machine HOLDing ∀ll walks o LIfE em bedded 'n me genes & memes holoGRAPHic at that [each part retaining inFORMation of th' [w]hole [genUINE[Freudian slip]] BEING moBILE & MODular & disJOINted nøt only 'n me life but 'n writing: "Every composition, and also every decomposition, uses mobile bricks as the basic unit [...] These bricks or blocks are the essential parts of desiring-machines from the point of view of the recording process." | thIS as i PIEce THis togather ' reCORDing me kindling | "There are no desiring-machines that exist outside the social machines that they form on a large scale; and no social machines without the desiring machines that inhabit them on a small scale." ne nøteION i learn+ conDUCTing a '66 VW Bug in th' Bay Area is to alWAYS CARry spare parts ' i had spares of BELTs & HOSEs & PUMPs & most analYthing so n=ever had to preOCCUPY mySELF & speaking of "desiring-machines" in th' CONtext of Frisco ' anyonere rememember Survival Research Laboratories ? D&G are as VISCEral as SRL in so MANy wORd MACHines ' pu shing th' LIMITs:
that es ' LATHer than conFINE th' deSIRE of traditi onal psychoANALySIS [w/capitalISM as it's manIFESTation] their brand o' so-called SCHIZOANALYSIS sOUGHT to liBERATE de sire | S&G trEAT[ed] deSIRE as a REAL proDUCTive force whereass psychoANALysis limit[ed] de SIRE to iMAGhINEry FANTAsies " ... Desire then becomes this abject fear of lacking something" wHere LACK stems from th' French 'MANQUE' meaning lack & need 'n a psychoLOGical ¢ense ' bundled w/want o scarCITY 'n an ecoNOMIC ¢ense | w/MANQUE in mind we mannEQUINS WANDered a round th' city up MARKET ' thrU th' TENDerLOiN & th' MIssION & UnION sQUAre ' FLâneURing ' g=ravitating to NORTH BEACH | BELLYing up for a REQuisite beer at Vesuvios | [beSIDEs BEing a hangOUT for BEATnik poets ' th' inSCRIPTion a boVe th' enTRANCE reads: "we are itching to get away from Portland, Oregon," PORTland BEing me own HOMEtown [of birth] & The Bay Area beING th' Area of me graduation alWAYs wanderING if this was written for meme] AFTer browsed a round City Lights p/u'ed Evenson's transLATION of Claro's book & sum oth'r items i forGET what | spotted a copy of Stories in the Worst Way & coINciDENTally J was wearing th' very SHOEs on th' COVER [soon to kill her FEET from all th' walking [no easy [sub]way to get to CALTRAIN in Frisco]] | | | then found an unSPECIfic Italian seafood joint 'n North Beach & ate tAsTEy STEAMers wASHed down w/ANCHOr STEAM [the CLAMs didn't agree w/J the NEXT day] sum other matters i'm sure i'm forGETting FAMILIAr ANAL Y SIS of deTERRIsTOReALIZATION | sOUTH bay | 09 AUG 15 | there's a dotted i in iDEA buthere's no dotted i in eYe | there are eYe's in eYes & 'n th' verb to see | our bodhies eVOLVing for to carry our eye & i | here's D&G on what we [perHAPs] glorify as flâneuring:
J&I wondeRING wolves w/out a home WANDering the tUNdra ' perHAPs mutUally schizOphrenic 'n oUr "wandering wombs" | REterritoriALIZED call me HYSTERical or a hypoCHONdriac | "Deterritorialization" imPLIES more than WATering down territory ' o UNDOing th' LANDscape ' it apPLIES to LANdGUAGE & MEANderING | territoriality is th' DRIVING force but "reterritorialization (remapping of beliefs, models, etc.) is not necessarily identical to the prior territory." | J&I raREly traVEil for th' sake of travelling ' usuALLY an excuse is involved ' this time it was to visit ' her sis & my bro ' my MOTHer [a n0 shOW for th' secund yr in a row blaming it all on a shoulder froZEN DearRIVING X-c0untrY] & to UNDO th' trip that got us here to begin a chain | nøt that we'd evern choo se California as a DESTINation on our own reCOGnizance | feeling lost & DISconnected in th' myriad of vehicles on th' kNØT-SO-freeWAYs | just a COG ' a KINK in th' sySTEM | w/D&G 'n mind conSOLing ' trying to steer clear of rigid imPOSEd hierARCHies ' ARBORescent conTEXTs seeking in vain to PACKage conCEPTS & obJECTS into diSCRETE cateGORizEd UNITs w/singular meanings or IDentities ' toWARD a RHIZOmatic zone of multipliCITY & fluctuant IDentity whERE MEANderINGs & opERAtions FLOW FREE beTWINing said obJECTs ' reSULTing in a dynamiconstantly ichinging {SET} of interCONNECTED entities with GaUSSian INdividUAL BOUNDaries"He scrambles all the codes and is the transmitter of the decoded flows of desire." whereas D&G USE PSYCHObabble to quell Freudian psychobabble | i follow ' a coQUE for a coQUE ' a mannequin for a mannequin in LINE w/the 3+1 Oedipal AXIS am i as Artaud says: I GOT NO/PAPAMUMMY | SUM things i can't RElate to [in person ' why I'm a mannequin]: "In the family, the young develop in a perverse relationship, wherein they learn to love the same person that beats and oppresses them." i n=ever learned to love in th' first place in a familiaL ¢ense only as mannequins we do | D&G speak 'n a broad ¢ense 'n re:gards to "family" 'n criti cizing all things Oedipal ' it apPLIES to soCIeTY as a whOle as th' Oedipal mode L of th' family is an ORGANization that must COLONIZE it's MEMBERs ' rePRESS their deSIRES & give them "complexes" if it is to FUNCtion as an ORGANizing principle of soCIeTY& a ghain in REgards to COLONization: "Oedipus is something like euthanasia within ethnocide." so-called 'primitives' are immune to Oedipus. Oedipus is a sickness of the western or industrialized world. "A Hindu or Eskimo can dream of Oedipus, without however being subjected to the complex." Mesostic MANneQUINs from the LANDFILL | SOUTH bay to SxSW | 09 AUG 17 | aWoke & rode a bike all along th' SALT marshes of th' bay ' what USEd to be a GARbage dump in my time NOW a MANIcured landfill "The Oedipal wad does not absorb these flows, any more than it could seal off a jar of jam or plug a dike." manneQUINs on BIcycles on a paved bikepath ' was this [______] once me [?] CONsciously losing consciousNESS as i REwrite this past HANGAR 1 where i once deLIVEred a pizza in that 66' BUG when i worked at DOMINOS ' what was once th' largest enCLOSEd structure [it's own weather sySTEMs eveN] ' now i doubt it | what do D&G mean by these mannequins & [___] machines [?] nøt the 66' BUG nor th' computer used to quote this:
where is tranSLATED as a "skimming or a draining off; a removal of a certain quantity as a sample or for purposes of testing." where ΔX re:preSENTs our POSITion & ΔP re:preSENTs our momentUM ' which was gathering ... our BwOs beCOMing ' flowing from th' goldEN Gate & Half Moon Bay LAMs & AnCHOR stEAM] GATHe ring stILL from th' SEDENtary & FAMILIAr reserVOIR of th' BAY to head out TO morROW | th' whirlwindPLAN: E thrU the Sierras & M0N0 Lake ' into Nevada ' S thrU Death Valley ' may be VeGa$ ' diag thrU AriZone to Tucson ' E thrU HATCH to AlbuQUErQUE ' whereby swITCH from car to truck ' RE:POSSESSions ' N thrU CO to SD ' Black Hills ' Bad Lands ' E to de troit ' p/u calaMARii ' then E "home" our only OBJECTive to obSERVE:
ExSE from INITial CONDITions of The BAY in to W I D E O P E N E X P A N s e rented a RED rental economy car | no GPS | no iPOD jack just AC/DC and CHANGES ONE or whatEVEr ELSE RANDOM came up on th' radioDIAL:
once WEwe're driving & a way we de sided nøt to fallow th' ORiGINal routE | inSTEAD veered SOuth thru th' valley of th' History of LUMINOUS Motion ' forging the semblance of a LINEAR narrative:
in th' state of Nevada u can't help but to th'ink of a[o]b$tra[u]cton o' ¢ense REmoved from it's value 'n eX¢hinge ' CASTRATEd from MEaning | a fake a norMAL lie ' nEVEr to thINK twice about th' pri¢e of FUEL cRASHed in some randOM Pa's Rump in th' moUrning we PLOWed on into VEGAS there's no longrr exCESS o eLITism 'n Vegas | even to th' layman it is ACCESSible ' th' aMERican dREAM wherein u neVer WAKE up & nEVEr FALL a sl e e p stucK sum of th' whereabouts i n b e t w i n e d:
this FLOW came 'n th' form of a watersLIDE ' tunnelling quanta thrU spawnless fish ExcESS EXtraction w/no absTRACT ions this FLOW nowadays perHAPs th' FLOW of disinFORMATION along those lines | | |
there's no ¢ense 'n GAMBling | GAMBling is only fun if u have means ' moneYe to spare & if u have moneYe to spare u don't need to gAMBLE | it's like aNYthing ELSE REALly | most VICEs | D&G reefer to capital as 'a VAMPire that sucks life from living labor' | writing is all work but no labor for dull boys:
Anti-Oedipus is proBABly th' onely bOOk object i'd REcommend to bothe likes of Jeffrey Sachs & Blake Butler ' tho judging by bLAKE's URL i magINe he alREADy has & Sachs ' well ' he reads everything somehow alREADy | | | aCHain ' headed in a different direACTion then as planned [thrU zION & Bryce & Grand CanYON] inSTead SOu thrU Sedona pLOWing di re STRAIghT nøt feeling TOURistY o cañYOñey | | | de:railed but nøt FOILed thrU phoeNIX before RUSH hour ' th' ostriches taking a break at Picacho [interSECTing along these lines] | | | QUick early mor ning "run around the block" = 4 MIles in Tucson | 1000+ MIles be hind us ' 2000+ toGO | resting up in th' shade of th' OWL ' reVISITing our old hAUNTs | | | TH' LineAge of 0UR LANdGUAGE | Tucson to Albuquerque [via HATCH] | 09 AUG 23 |
i.e. CONtext is EVERYthing ' it takes 2 to tanGO ' etc. tHere's a SUN in ANUS if u kNow wHere to l‰k | th' sky dARKened & th' monSOONs came nEXT moUrning went RUNNing a long th' RIllitO river 'er ' WASH [sand WET but nøt FLOWing] in th' Deleuzian sense of th' woords ' a need for speed PROMPTed onLY by miNimiZing SUN expoSURE & CREOsote conTACT high:
early moUrning dePARTure before the sun rose | | | SxSW into New Mexico stopping in HATCH for infamous green chiles | | | th' seeds! Deleuze & Guattari are all over th' MAP working on as many LEVELs exploring th' DUALity in/of LlAaNnGgUuAaGgEe eSPECIALly as aPLIEd to th' BINary sySTEM of th' Dogon | causing to REconSIDer everYthing i subSEQUENTly read & write looking beYond th' syMbols to their enTIREd ontoGENic [& phyloGENic] hiSTORies:
then in ALBUqueRque we sHUCKed th' burLAPPED BUSHels of green CHILEs then put them on ice for to KEEP: for we are POST-modern gNOMADs | call us HYPOcritical for tRAVELing in th' (0,1st) place for US tHere 's no SUCH pLace as LOCii carrying what we EAT marrying what we CARRY | J is all about fOOd & i'm all about bOOks | ARTisian yet SCIENtifii' lo-fi lo-brow "SLOW" if posSIBle but nøt so easy fur nomads in a continuoUS whirlWIND ' tornaDOING a cross th' counTry u can think LOCAL whil st ill tRaveling GLOBally here's where i spiral into CHAOS trying to FORM a narrative thREAD sewing up th' burSting SEAMs ' reVERSion back to SAVoyAGE | D&G delve into Marcel Griaule's study of the DOGON [our REtiCiENT take on Dogon] in DIEU D'EAU: "something is produced at a certain moment, at the level and on the side of the eighth ancestor: a derailment of the disjunctions, which cease to be inclusive and become exclusive. Once this occurs, there is a dismemberment of the full body [...] in short, a whole ark of alliance." th' use of ARK didn't go uNnOTicED to SELF: delve more into DOGON MYTHology | we went to MALI bLIND w/HINDsight but th'is NOW=America
i'm picturing th' ScEnE 'n Donnie Darko wherein he sees tUbes of flUid light exTENDing from his familial MEMBERs: these are visualizations of BwOs if ever there were surely Richard Kelly was UNDer th' inFLUENCE of Deleuze & Guattari | D&G in turn dWell on a LOT of writers ' eSPECIAlly BECKETT ' Henry MILLer & of course ARTAUD:
AMEN ' soon to be th' new calaMARii MANtra | in Tijeras ("scissors") i went for a long rUn a long roUte 66 [ in #onor of # in NewEST TATTOO ] usING a dead rattleSNAKE for a neckTIE ' breat hing high moUNtain piñONy air ' fOLLOwed by more farm-to-fork green chile cheese omeLETs [continuing to get HIGH off th' supPLY] reaDING into more D&G in th' sun of th' room ' ruminating on th' perMANence of writing ' in light of tattoos achain whether D&G kNows it or kNøt:
they of COURSE ride on oTHEr phiLOsophers [mostly in an attempt to deRAIL] & often they reach for th' Nietzsche: "it is a matter of creating a faculty of forgetting (oubli), by means of a repression of biological memory, must create an other memory of things, a memory of signs and no longer of effects. This organization, which traces its signs directly on the body, constitutes a system of cruelty, a terrible alphabet: "Perhaps indeed there was nothing more fearful and uncanny in the whole prehistory of man than his mnemotechnics [...] Man could never do without blood, torture, and sacrifices when he felt the need to create a memory for himself [...] one has only to look at our former codes of punishment to understand what effort it costs on this earth to breed a 'nation of thinkers'!"!" they also exPAND on Derrida [th' object of my last post]: "Jacques Derrida is correct in saying that every language pressupposes a writing system from which it originates, if by that he means the existence and the connection of some sort of graphism—writing in the largest sense of the term [...] He is again correct in linking writing to incest in a mysterious fashion. But we see nothing in this link that would lead us to conclude in favor of the constancy of an apparatus of psychic repression, operating in the manner of a graphic machine capable of performing as well by means of Hieroglyphs as by phonemes. (...) It challenges exegesis in the name of recitation, pure textuality, and superior "scientificity" (scientificité)." "REAL" eSTATE & deTERRITORIALIZATION | Tijeras, NM | 09 AUG 25 | as i USUally do for no other reaSON then i can i WANDered aimLESSly around our PROPerty [see n in video above] ' th' only beLONGing o poSSESsion of any true subSTANCE that J&I own beSIDEs books & food of course | nøt that it's been 'deveLOPED' there's nøthing built on it yet | i WANDERed with D&G's knøtion of deterritorialization in mind PONDERing th' IDeas of TERRitory & private PROPerty in all it's imPLIcations ' d'according to D&G it's th' rhizomic root of all evil & capitalism:
more than PROPERty [LAND] is this vain deSIRE to own ' MATTERial possessIONS that only come back to bite u in th' ASS:
i'm not unDONE here | th'IS a work in proCESS trying to EVERblow new bREADthe into words that otherWISE might PAint a gRIM landSCAPE:
Delueze himself was CHAINed to an OXYgen MACHine toWARD off th' END of His LIFE [a CHRONnic smoker] EVENTually thrOWING His mannequined BwO from his OwN WINDOW n | | | 1717 miles down ' 2320 to go | we picked up our 16" PENske tRuck [smALLest available] & LOADed it w/all our WORlDly POS sessIONS + [still 3/4 emp – ty] then had a last SUpper of pozOLE & gr CHILE | these nøtions of deTERRItorialization TrYING my head in a TOPOlogical knøt ' (0,0)RIGINallY we thoughT to head up via th' Black Hills ' bUt w/newfound time con sTraints we though T other wise | noW he're esSENTially UNdoing th' X-c0untry rOUTe we took 13 monTHs aGO iN getting to AFRICA | nøt that it's as simple as UNdoing th' route ' for inSTANCE clOVER[⌘]LEAF EXITs preSENT a topoLOGICAL concern in reVERSE & of course conTEXT & time means th' worLd | | | [first night lodged in some scary Super-8 w/a kiddie-POOL full of crystalMETHed out truckers | SWitched to SURvival MODE | NOTE to SELF: do NØT get off th' BOAT | this our 5th time traVERSing th' U.S. & there's nøt much to say about th' EntIRE part that lies betWEEN th' 2 coasts [E of th' ROCKies anYway] ' at lEAST when tRAVELing as such carrying th' WEiGHT of all our POSSESSions ] | | [secUnd night esCAPEs my memeory ' rePRESSed u might say ' oh somewhere w/lots of corn fields & fat people] | | then we made it to th' brother Markus residence SOuth of Detroit where we took a load off & loaded up th' calaMARii that'd been stowed in his fruit cellAR this long long winter ' some 2 doZen bOXes o bOOks but sTILL nowHERE near to FILLing our truck deSPITE st00ping at WAL-mart & sTRIP MALLs & bOXstores th' siZe o MANhattan for BIcYcles & bOOksHelves & cases o beer & wine nøt to MENTion th' styrOfoam cooler of roasted green CHILE clams on ice o s & WHATever else we could think of to FILL SPACE ' maYbe eveN tURN a proFIT but no HEadspace for tHAT & then WE're off aghain nøt EVEn stickING a round for th' subURBAN block party to watch bro' morph to cottoncandY PETE | thrU oHiO into PA st00ped at sum rANDom dereLICT reSORT in th' POCONOs w/an ARCade & SKEEball & a KaraOKE bah | out of sheer boreDOM [& for J & to ENTERtain OURselves] i sang a heartFELT "Losing My Religion" to a bunch o' STRANGErs co-workers that all kNew oneanother but nøt US ["the distance in your eyes ' oh no " I said too much"] then J sang "LandSlide" & then a huMAN leaGUE DUet & from tHere wewere H O M E F R E E all we needed to do was wait for th' light to crack th' sky & in my eagerness to get a move on like ducks to water i FORGot my wallet in the POCONOs reSORT [it feLL out of mypantspocket & UNDER th' BED liKe ol' sMOKeY & i didnt cHECK mypockets til wewere getting breakFAST an h0ur orso aWay] so wehad to backPEDAL 50+ MIles dRIVerING th' same road TWice & then getting to TH' CITY gates w/a truck all ways a nightMARE th' signage never makeSENSE ' everything hapHAZARD built 'n COLONial times serIUOSly & th' holLAND TUNNEL o linCOL°N TUNNEL wouldn't let us thrU i forget whICH but it sucked reGARDless i'm typing T H I S so obVIOUSly we made it LUCKily finding a parkING space out front lugging EVERYthing up to th' 5th floor ' th' 7th time we've moVed 'n MANhattan ' th' 5th time to th' 5th fl00r of a 5th fl00r walkUP [o th' r 2 eleVatored] whata WORKout conVERTing KINEtic enrrrgy into POTENTial enrrrgy | my lower back stILL hurts but ohwhatafeeling whence all possessIONS inTACT in 1 PLACEr eVen tho therewas pulenty of unpACKing to do | | | grEEN CHile CLAMs & calaMARii resIDUALs & nuMEN perVERSIONS | SEPT 17 [_____] then it was justa MATTER of putting things in their RIGHT PLACE taking sTOCK of th' SITutatIONs finding sPACE in this here LOFT going to th' CONTAINER STORE my FAVorite stORE on principle alONE [_____] ORGANizing ' building bookshELVEs | [_______] INVENTorying calaMARii which I'll spare u details [sufficetosay i upDATEd th' prinTABLE cataLOG & sLOWered prices so help me move sum of these please] & reLEASed a new one too [Boons & the Camp] & retrIEVING th' last REMAINDers from euGENE who had been holding on to them since lastyears Brooklyn Bookfest which i went to achain this year to put things in perSPECTive w/ broTHEr bLAKE who i'd just see n read th' night beFORe w/ broLo & THE dude at Barbès [____] goodtimes anYhoow noow all th' calaMARii isin 1 place | ere's what they alllll look like shelved [exCESS boXes nøt SHOWn]: beSIDEs beING a bookIE ' being a foodIE cooking up a FIREstorm w/them HATCH green chiles now that i'm againfully unemPLOYed i've been COOking everY night to $ave been back more than a FORTnight+ & we've only gONE out maybe twice | here's somofwhat u cando w/green chiles:
& there's plenty still in th' ICEBOX now aNY how back to th' sUBJECT of this here disPATCH: ANTI-ŒDIPUS | i managed to reel in th' last 100 or so pages & it keeps folding & reFOLDing itSELF into th' folds of my bRAIN like saltwater taffy de:edi:territori[re]alizing my headSPAce & maybe yers twice or thrice reMOVEd for "Oedipus is one of those things that becomes all the more dangerous the less people believe in it." there's more to ANAL-REtentive than fearing a FINGER up yer arse | there's gHosts in th' BUSH: "sometimes the same man in two situations: the bush paranoiac and the village pervert" | in regards to such oedipal perversions: I acKNOWledge th' importance of sexuality as a desire that got us this far but that's as far ass i'll say | tHere's no SKeletONs in my closeT in LIghT of my own ARK ' bestiality COULD be an interesting one to expORE [in fiction that is] "libido does not come to consciousness except in relation to a given body, a given person that it takes as object." it's more about REcordING that I have always been interested in even when I was into muSIC it was the idea of RECORDING: "And we have doubtless been able to present things in a logical order where the disjunctive synthesis of recording seemed to follow after the connective synthesis of production, with a part of the energy of production (Libido) being converted into a recording energy (Numen)." Recording is a staving off of immortality:
[per CAGE's SILENCE & "experimental" in th' ¢ense of of an ACT th' outCOME of which is unknOWN] & now its time to do less FREEway THinking & more INKing from th' 5th STOReY HEy watch me pull a RAreBIT out of my HAT " ΣuM OBject that conFIT in an enVeLOPE] | | |